Phikyl

Maybe it's only me but over the past few years, on the day that I get one year older every year, I no longer feel anything special. The day just passes as usual like any other day..

Well I just treated myself a little bit better by eating any foods that I want :P

Play that piece of memory,

the time when a boy was crying out his mother gone and so he promises to guard his little stepsister,

the time when a boy was in learning to be a responsible man by sat silently in the middle of the night tried to think what the next step of his family lived in the hit of crisis,

the time when that man with a tired face rushing towards me then calmly took the knife out of my hand and said sorry that he made me feel lonely,

the time that I blame my father when I'm spoiled because it felt unfair that he trained him much as my jealousy of him become an overachiever at age within the surrounding environment,

the time when that man finally relaxed a bit and smile more as he was bringing a group of close friends to home that dumb said (I knew he just made an excuse to know more about her),

the time when I found out his alter attitude in the forum and mock his shameless side,

the time later when he introduced me to his very sick best friend made him shattered into pieces in a short time after confession,

the time when I grieved my mother why she put those burdens on a man so he didn't have a chance to feel hurt bit by bit and it finally triggered to explode asking for recovery time,

the time when I finally grow up and understand the face behind all the efforts including forced smiles to make sure my teenage life was still good,

the time when I eventually admire his fight in life,

by rewinds, there were enough storms to make a man panic and it should be tiring for him, isn't it? I was so clumsy before... Believe it such a pain to safeguard me and so on to keep promise.

Recently it was his turns to make me, as they took him there to the safest place. I'm still made of greed, in the question of why it was so fast.

Absurd, and unimaginable. It was like yesterday I thought I will be the next one, but turns that time was the last I can see him within the breath : seven hours from the last smile he made on Friday 5th February.  

And I'm wishing hard to be able to make him rest in peace someday. He is my best brother. He still is.

He will laugh at me by how melancholic and TMI I am, but doesn't he realize he was just the same in this place? I miss you, brother. And will always, just like mother, and father. But you are kind of a bit more painful at least for now, the longest two weeks I ever had @abnoch

This gym rat is going to her happy place. 🥳

This gym rat is going to her happy place. 🥳